Just a Georgia Softball Player – Part 1

I am just a softball player from Georgia who has played Georgia softball since I was 9 years old. And this...is my story... But it could be any girls story....which is why I am sharing it. 

I took my first percocet when I was 15 years old. My brother had been injured playing football and the doctor had given him pain meds during recovery. He slept so good, so so good...I was so jealous watching him just rest.

At the time, I didnt know why I took the pill. That one pill led to many others - but I will get to that in a little while.

Looking back, I can see that I was just looking for an escape. I wanted to sleep and not think. I wanted an opportunity to take a freaking break, a break from playing softball in Georgia. Dont get me wrong, I still loved softball, but I was tired.

So tired. Soul tired.

So I had hoped at the time that the percocet would somehow in someway give me just a short period of time where I could shut my brain off, give me a moment of not thinking, take away some of the pressure and overwhelming feeling of always trying to be ON.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to ALWAYS be ON?????????? I do. 

When you come from a competitive family where sports are EVERYTHING, and your living room has an entire wall dedicated to athletic accomplishments, trust me...its easy to feel overwhelmed. Not with softball, but with everything else.